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Ringing in the new…well, everything!

Hi guys!
It’s been so long. My apologies.
But, yay for a 2015 post👍

So look, a lot happens every month, every week, every single day that it’s hard to keep up with. Right? I mean, most people I know are out and about, working and hustling almost every day and can’t even remember what they ate last week let alone what they’ll eat next Thursday evening. The point is, we are busy. But, are we too busy? Are we so caught up in the hustle that we are losing sight of our goals and dreams?

I was in a yoga class recently where the teacher said: we are living in the past and hoping for the future and we’ve forgotten about right here and right now. She also went on to talk about her old self and how she wanted so badly for so long to be anything but herself in her younger years. To be the complete opposite of who she was. And in some ways that was for the better, but what she said that stuck with me the most is to not discredit our past selves because without those past selves we wouldn’t ve where we are now.
This class really got me thinking (not to mention physical tension released in the most incredibly spiritual ways) about who I was. Who was Mindy as a kid? Who was Mindy as a teenager? Who was Mindy in her early 20’s. As I started to mull it over I realized I’ve done the same thing in some ways.
The teacher talked about her diaries and how history repeated itself over and over, it just changed names and faces, but we’re the same experiences. Now, I don’t know about you guys, but I’d prefer to improve, to grow, to change. To look back in another 30 years and see how much different the first thirty were from the next. To read my diaries (so to speak) & see me differently, yet the same. To see how the old me helped shape a better and much improved new me.

I’ve kept this shorter, as I just really wanted to drop that little nugget of wisdom in your brain soil so you can water it and watch yourself grow too.

Life is too short to live on repeat!!
Take your past and use it to strengthen your future and enrich others’ lives as well. We are all flawed. We are all struggling. But, what good is the struggle if we don’t improve and just keep regurgitating??
I encourage you to look back over your diary entries (physically read or metaphorically) and see your old self. And be compassionate with yourself for the things you’d do differently now. After all, you wouldn’t know not to do the things you did, if you’d ever done them 😉

Love yourself for who you were, who you
are, & where you’re headed.

A sisters text

It’s so interesting how life can go one direction for so long, and paths won’t have crossed for quite some time.  Then, without warning, a message will pop up on your phone.  You sigh with a twinge of surprise, yet as you swipe open your iPhone you’re struck with wonder to all at once see how badly you needed those words.  Simply stated as passing thought, yet they strike your heart like fire to fodder.  You say you’re exhausted (beyond words), and the response: “I bet! Maybe u get a’s cuz you need something to focus your energy on? i get like that sometimes….I’m sorry that life is so insane now…”

As this is read, your head nods, feeling a different type of disbelief, an understanding of a new notion.  The realization that she’s right.  She has watched for years, and knows her sisters’ patterns!

Then, BAM! One text and the over-complication (of an already constipated debacle) as your greatest ally in times of tumult is beyond evident.

A step back, and you’re right on track.  Just like that, a swipe of an iPhone, all in a sisters text.

Although I can’t recall the last time I had fried chicken, this blog is fantastic!

Ashley Horner

I remember the hot SEX I had on the kitchen table, not the fried chicken I ate there last Tuesday.


 We use our senses for different things; they are the tools that our bodies use. We use our touch to feel, our mouths to taste, our noses to smell, ears to hear, and our eyes to see.  Being in the fitness industry you don’t always get to enjoy the taste some foods, but merely use the energy from the food to sustain life and to reach our goal.  I joined a good friend of mine for lunch a few days ago, as I am closing in on my competition date my choices of foods at restaurants (being 4 days out,) are very slim. Any seasoned fitness model knows when you are days out from a shoot or a show you do not take a chance on restaurant cooked food.  

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John Mayer Said It Best…

“When you’re dreaming with a broken heart. The waking up is the hardest part…”

This has been my life the past week.  It sucks to even fall asleep, and when awakening I feel as though only my dream has shifted.  That, truthfully, I’m in an alternate dreamscape that is relatively horrific, and altogether confusing and heart-wrenching.  There isn’t much else I want to, but crawl back in bed to see if when I wake up, nothing is at it seems

The heart plays us as fools all too often, however, if we allow ourselves, we may see reality vs. emotion.  Independence as strength, rather than codependency in fear suffering from pain. If we can step outside the present, the angst, the newly opened wound, we are able to see the good that can become of this.  That we are not as weak as we once believed, that we are capable of many experiences and adventures we never before sought out.

If, then, you are in my metaphorical boat of heart ache, I encourage you to take a moment to start doing that which you haven’t. The project you never seemed to have time to do, a place you wanted to visit, or a friend you needed to call…. Don’t let your current present emotional agony determine your future’s success!



Quick and Easy…

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That’s how I like most of my food prep to go these days.  After all, who has time to just “kick it” in the kitchen for a couple of hours anymore?  I don’t, that’s why I liked lunch today.  I threw the ingredients together about an hour and a half before I was ready to eat, and went back to writing my paper.  Consequently, I finished the paper, the rough draft, AND was able to have a meal at lunch.  Say WHAT?!?

Okay, here it is, now that I’ve built it up into something monumental…’s not that spectacular sounding, but it was frekkin yummo.

I blended recipe of Thai and Malaysian sweet coconut rice… here’s what I came up with.  I was wishing I had saffron because that would have made this even better!

here it is:

2 cups jasmine or brown rice

1 can coconut milk (don’t do low fat, it’s just a dumb choice)-usually these are about 14 oz, since it called for 2 cups all together, I just added 2 oz of my boxed coconut milk in the fridge.

2 cups water

couple star anise

1/2 a lime squeezed

1 teaspoon sugar (I used sucanat)

1 Tablespoon coarsely cut ginger pieces- julienne

1 cinnamon stick- didn’t have a stick, just sprinkled some powder on it

stir and set rice cooker for white or brown.

once I started that, I cubed some extra firm tofu up to set in marinade that I just sort of “whipped up”.

your favorite teriyaki sauce, or just create your own

orange juice

mango good belly (because I had it and am obsessed with mango)

coconut juice (again it was in the fridge…)

braggs amino acids

sweet chili sauce

cayenne pepper

ginger powder

garlic powder

whisk, toss tofu, let sit until rice is done.  throw into frying pan (you will not need oil), “fry” until it’s getting crispy.

you’re good to go. I sliced mango and avocado for the top…  this is lacking in vegetables because I was on a vacation and haven’t had a chance to pick up produce, BUT it was sufficient (and delicious!!) for lunch 🙂


Favorite Vegan Cuppy Cakes

This has been modified from’s red velvet recipe with my own frosting recipe. I’ve played around with it, and I find that when using gluten free flour and vegan ingredients it had to be as follows!

Make. Enjoy!  ❤

3 organic beets, boil for 40 minutes-cool, peel, and chop
1/2 cup organic applesauce
1/2 cup earth balance (softened) or coconut oil (solid)—both options work!
1 1/2 cups organic cane sugar
2 “eggs”- 2 Tbls ground chia seed with 6 Tbls water
1 tsp. organic vanilla extract
1 Tb. Apple cider vinegar or lemon juice
1 cup plain soy or coconut yogurt
2 Tb. organic cocoa powder or organic raw chocolate powder
1 1/2 tsp. baking soda
2 cups flour- I use gluten free because that’s just how I roll!
1 tsp. Himalayan or sea salt

Preheat oven to 350°F. Prepare your cupcake pans with liners…

Blend into smooth puree chopped cooked beets & applesauce

With your electric mixer, cream up the earth balance (or coconut oil) & sugar. Add chia seed water mixture. Then vanilla and beet mixture. Mix well. Add vinegar & yogurt, & re-blend.

In a separate bowl, mix the cocoa or chocolate powder, baking soda, flour, and salt together. Add to the wet ingredients and mix until well blended.

Pour into liners and bake for approximately 30-35 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean. Cool in pans on a wire rack for 5 minutes before removing from pans. Then allow to cool completely.

My frosting of choice is sort of a cream cheese/vanilla frosting…

  • 1/2 cup of earth balance (1 stick), room temperature
  • 8 oz of vegan cream cheese (1 container), room temperature
  • 2 – 3 cups of vegan powdered sugar (or sugar you’ve blended into powder J )
  • 1 teaspoon of vegan vanilla extract

Blend until smooth & add sugar to taste!

feeling. stress. emotion.

cynical: job. finances. school. relationship. feeling.

numb: trust. faith. hope. stress.

empty: food. meditation. love. emotion.


would the outlook change without hurts (feelings)?

would they subside with positive change (good stress)?

would completeness come were the voids (emptiness) to be filled?

 i want to be positive.

i need to build my savings, i want a plan for school, i want security in my relationship.  these all form my cynical perspective. i’m looking to change that to: i am saving, i have a plan, i feel safe.

i need to learn to trust, i need to invest in my faith/spirit, i need to find a reason to truly live, i need to eliminate stress. this transformed to: i am letting trust be built, i am finding my inner peace, i live for love and others, i am making life improvements and these take time.

i need to maintain my healthy diet, i need to be consistent in meditation, i need to feel love, i need to be stabilized.  actions to take: cook/prepare my foods in advance, meditate daily, give love to feel love, relax and let myself re-energize and reboot.